Many times I've wrote about how I grew weary on my walk with God. Many times also that I was reminded by God that apart from Him I am absolutely nothing. So many times I failed God, and for  countless times I directed my life on my own. I became shortsighted of the glory of God. I thought He is no longer mindful of me. I even came to a point of blaming Him for the bitterness and emptiness I felt within me. It was so shameful of me to feel such thing against Him...

Then God revealed something to me... I cannot run away from Him... No matter what will I do with my life, He will be looking after me, He will not forsake me. Oh hallelujah! How can I be so proud of myself that I forgot my real identity before God!

Last Friday, during an overnight fellowship with my fellow youth, I am so ashamed in facing God. I cannot afford to look straight unto Him. I felt like I do not deserve for His mercy and glory anymore, but somehow, God said on His words, in Romans 8:1- THERE IS NO CONDEMNATION... Wow! That was exactly the words that He gave me when I kneeled before Him for forgiveness...

I am so thankful for the relief that morning! Yes, I am coming back to God, like what the prodigal son did to his father... I am coming back to the heart of w♥rship!

God's tender mercy is new every morning! His steadfast love never ceases! Glory and honor be upon Him and only Him! Amen.

Determined to survive...

Determined as I was to lose weight, I became consistent with my desire to wake up early in the morning together with my housemates to jog our way to a healthy lifestyle. Actually, I somehow managed to walk and jog but in gradual mode only since I am still having a difficulty in catching my breath (lol!). We took a different route right now. We no longer pass through the Robinson underpass, we utilize the large parking area of Limketkai, along Limketkai Drive. It's nice to take a morning walk wherein all you can see are smiling people who have the same advocacy as yours, and you can hear less vehicle noises and more of the chirping birds. It is also a good feeling to be able to greet the early street sweepers, who, in their own remarkable way,  manage also to shred some calories too.

I know I still have a long way to go but at least I made it. I notice some positive changes so far. I no longer find it too tiresome in taking my steps up to the third floor of the ICT Building where I held my class every Monday and Tuesday night.

Wanna be a part of my morning advocacy?

I've stumbled so many times... I disobeyed God... I go on my way, I became complacent in serving Him... I grew weary on my ministry...

I am absolutely and completely lost from His plans for me. But guess what, last Friday, during my close encounter with Him, it was really such a great experience! But I know it's not all about experience, it's all about the reality that after all, God still choose to forgive and love me unconditionally... What a heavenly dose of truth!

Life, just like a sentence, is expressed in different way. A sentence that ends with a question mark is somehow related to a confused life- so many questions and doubts but no definite answer. While those sentence that ends with an exclamatory point can be likened to a life that is filled with surprises. For a life that is filled with hope goes on and on just like a sentence that has so many commas. Some may be confronted with so many options just like a colon or a semi-colon. A life that is worthy of praise and adoration is just like a quote that is enclosed in a quotation marks. And for those who experienced greatly and was able to overcome all the challenges in life may have been emphasized well in the society just like the words within a parenthesis. Nevertheless, for those who seems to lose the faith and hope to continue with their life may just end it with a PERIOD.

How about you? How do you construct the sentence of your life?

just for fun...

Determination? Yes! That's the right term for hopeless- to- lose weight individual like me. I opened up the idea with my house mates to wake up early in the morning in order to shred some calories, and indeed, we were able to make it this morning. Our route was within the Limketkai ground (Starting from the rear portion of PNB Bank down to Robinson underpass). While we are on our way (we woke up a little bit late so by the time we started hiking from the boarding house it is already 5:30 in the morning), I suggested for  a brisk walking only but my two other companion insisted for jogging. And that was it! I go for brisk walking while the two went ahead of me as they jogged their way to fitness. It takes determination to realized such goal. I have so many failed attempts before. I was overcome with my laziness to pursue such goal. Mid-month this year, one of my house mates invited me to join the Aero-dance sponsored by Nestle at the Sports Center. I was very interested then but wasn't able to continue after four successive attendance. I just hope that this time, I will really stick to my goal. I felt the urge to persevere. My body told me so. I finished just one round for this morning. I have to do it gradually as my Arthritis is bugging me again.

Would you care to join with me?

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Yup, thank God it's Wednesday! Time flew so fast. I am glad that  my first meeting with my students was very successful. The classes that were given to me are so far very good, dominated by well-behaved young men. I know we still have a long way to go but the first meeting last Monday and Tuesday with my Mechanical Engineering students only proves that even a spoiled brat child can be tamed. The teacher's role is indeed very challenging. It is not easy to deal with quite a number of students especially all-male. Patience and Self-control are very essentials in handling them. The way they are treated is also very significant. There might be a tendency that teachers may lost their patience but the manner of gaining it back without losing your temper is the most challenging part. Well, I just closed my fingers in prayer that this whole semester will end up smoothly with no failing marks.

Aja!