As I was contemplating on how life can be so challenging that it consumes all our patience, it made me think about those who couldn't care less about it. Sometimes, I came to a point of choosing between living carefree and living in accordance to the standard of the society (those that are said to be legal and appropriate). I am actually experiencing hollowness deep within me... I am confused once again.

There's one thing that I want to give up but I do not know how should I go about it. I am totally out of control with my life right now. I want to scream for being so dumb... for acting like a numb.

Reality bites once again that sometimes, we tend to forget ourselves and our identity. We lost composure. We forget the basic principle.

I hope and I wish to forget everything but I can't...

How I wish life is like an audio player on which it can be rewind. 

But that's not how life was made of...

The truth remains: Life is how we make it.

Who among us are not familiar with the Paradox of Life? In case you do not know about this, let me share it with you:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but

shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but

have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller

families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less

sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems,

more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little,

drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too

little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too

much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a

living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've

been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street

to meet a new neighbour. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've

done larger things, but not better things. We've cleaned up the air, but

polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write

more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to

rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to

produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods, and slow digestion, big men and small

character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of

two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are

days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night

stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to

quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and

nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to

you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just

hit delete.

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going

to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to

you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your

side. Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is

the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but

most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from

deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for

someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to

speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

Easier said than done? Why not give it a try? I am a failure to some of the realities in life... but I am holding on to the truth that if we cling unto God for wisdom, strength and guidance- things are never really that hard for us... We can still choose to live our life to the fullest ♥