This is an evidence that indeed time goes by and I am not getting any younger, so does my son. He just turned 2 and I am so thankful with his life. My role as a Mom taught me a lot of things. My son and daughter is indeed my bundles of joy. The feeling when you are a Mom is too different. Before, I spent time with my nieces and nephew playing with them but my patience for them is not as stretched and as extended as what I am now to my son though sometimes I cannot stop myself from punishing him like spanking when he did something that really needs to be corrected or else he will grow up not knowing the difference between bad and good AND okay or not okay.

 

I am so glad it's Friday, which means no class tomorrow thus I will have a lot of time to spend with my newborn and her Kuya. My Friday schedule is so hectic which starts from 9:00AM to 6:30PM (straight schedule,literally no break hour in between), all CADD subjects. Most of my students from these classes were my students before in Fundamentals of Drawing. At least I don't have a hard time knowing them all LOL! I still have to think how to have a make up class with them considering that the laboratory schedule is so hectic as well. I will try to innovate for the lectures even if we will use another room. Anyway, CADD subject isn't really that difficult after all. Familiarizing the command is all they need for every activity and project. As of today, we are still on Activity No. 1, Line Exercise and so far they seems to make it right. I am glad that by the time my classes end, the rain stop. It is really inconvenient to commute when it's raining. I dropped by at the Gaisano Mall to buy diapers for my babies earning additional points for our Suki Card. When I arrived home, my li'l girl is already sleeping and my my li'l boy greeted me with a smile :) 

♫ Back when I was a child, before life removed all the innocence My father would lift me high and dance with my mother and me and then Spin me around ‘til I fell asleepThen up the stairs he would carry me And I knew for sure I was lovedIf I could get another chance, another walk, another dance with him I’d play a song that would never, ever end How I’d love, love, love To dance with my father again When I and my mother would disagreeTo get my way, I would run from her to him He’d make me laugh just to comfort meThen finally make me do just what my mama saidLater that night when I was asleepHe left a dollar under my sheetNever dreamed that he would be gone from meIf I could steal one final glance, one final step, one final dance with himI’d play a song that would never, ever end‘Cause I’d love, love, loveTo dance with my father again Sometimes I’d listen outside her door And I’d hear how my mother cried for him I pray for her even more than meI pray for her even more than me I know I’m praying for much too much But could you send back the only man she lovedI know you don’t do it usually But dear Lord she’s dyingTo dance with my father againEvery night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream ♫ ♪

Me and my sister love this song so much especially the version of Jessica Sanchez (Original by Luther Vandross). However, I just cannot relate with the song. How I wish I have such kind of a father. I grew up without him. I only find that father-figure through my late Tatay. My biological father has the time of his life when he was still on his younger years. He married my Mom at an early age, got separated few years after our 6th sibling was born, married again to different women, expanded his territory by having more offspring and most of them I don't even got the chance to meet.

I used to hate him for being him. I used to blame him for every fears and misery that I've been through.However, God's Words prompted me one day. I've been struggling much in the area of forgiveness. Yet I was reminded of myself, being imperfect. I may not get to choose my parents, but God uses them as an instrument for my existence. Then I resolve it to myself, I should not hate him anymore.

The other night, we have a very long phone conversation. I told him how I truly felt about him. He accepted everything. He admit all his mistakes then he asked me this one question, "Nak, do you hate me?". I told him frankly, that I don't dwell on it anymore. If I ever hated him then I would never dare to call him. Then he laugh. I can feel a sigh of relief on the other line. But i told him as well that hatred was no longer overwhelming me yet I cannot feel any real connection anymore with him. I explained it to him. He seems to understand. And the line was cut off. He warned me earlier that his phone battery was about to drain but he asked me to continue to talk. 

I really don't get to miss him anymore. But one thing is for sure, I am still thankful with him. For without him, I won't exist.And no matter how would i deny him, in the eyes of God, HE IS STILL MY FATHER.

I may have the chance to dance with him, if not now, maybe tomorrow or in the coming days... Maybe not in reality, perhaps in one of my dreams...Well, the song was the exact opposite but still how I wish that someday, my own daughter (if God permits to grant me one) will sing this song to his dad.

-♥♥♥-

 

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Her name is Jenny...

She's stubborn but sweet

She often speaks her mind...

She's a risk taker and was never afraid of chances...

She's kind and generous...

She's petite but her heart is so big...

She's a loyal friend and a very thoughtful one...

She's lovable, adorable and amiable...

She's happily married...

She's my best friend...

She's my youngest sister.

I love her...

and I really miss her so much.

Today is her birthday.

My niece' 8th birthday...

Wishing her so much love and happiness...

Oops, isn't it a title of the movie? Whoever watch that movie, I'm pretty sure it's one of those unforgettable movie flicks. Well, I will not be writing about that movie...Rather, i'll be writing about the month itself.

August is such a busy month. It's the last month of the third quarter, to be followed by the "ber" months (I can now imagine the glitters and decos for the Holiday season).Anyway, just to refresh your memories on the History brought to you by http://www.indepthinfo.com/months/august.shtml:

The month of August is named for the Roman Emperor Augustus. He completed the calendar reforms begun by his great-uncle and adoptive father Julius Caesar. The Roman Senate, in order to curry favor with the tyrant changed the name of the eighth month, (which is fitting because before he became Augustus, this Caesar was named Octavian). The name was changed from Sextilis which actually meant "sixth month". The eighth month had been called the sixth month for over a centuries, because the Roman Senate had rolled back the beginning of the year to January 1st in 153 B.C. but had not changed the names of the months to conform to their new position in the calendar.

I've known a lot of personalities born on this month and mind you, they're not just merely personalities, but they are those who are closer to my heart, they are my families! Most of them are from my spiritual family. We have there our co-bloggers, and I guess both of them were truly inspired aside from the fact that they're not getting any younger (oops!), that's arjay and joey and we also have two of my spiritual younger sister, the forever emotional Esther Joy and always pretty Hannah...

And also, today, August 21, 2010,marks another year of our beloved spiritual leader, Bishop Genesis T. Udang... God indeed blessed him so much. With a very supportive wife and obedient sons, and the soon-to be realization of their dream house. I am pretty sure that more blessings are coming along their way!








And of course, TOMORROW, August 22, 2010, is my one and only Mama's birthday! Some says I am her replica. Well, I don't want to disagree because she's convinced with it as well and SHE'S MY MOM, it's beyond reasonable doubt ☺ She might be unpredictable sometimes (just like me) but I knew and I can feel it how much she l♥ves me (hmmm...) We might argue on minor issues sometimes but in her her silence I know there is understanding... I love her so much, she knew that so well... My Mom, my Corazon... (mi amor!)





And on August 26, another very important person will celebrate his birthday, it's none other than my step dad, my dear Tatay. Once,  he gave up everything to the point of forgetting himself in the name of l♥ve. People may consider it wrong but I truly blessed the day Tatay came into our life. I know God brought him to us for a reason. I may seldom say this, but I love my Tatay so much.He filled what my real father failed to do... He played the role of the most important person in our home. He resume the obligation that was abandoned by the leading man :)







And finally, on August 30, 2010, will be the 10th birthday of my one and only nephew (as of now☺) I can't imagine how time flew so fast. We are now almost of the same height. Kuya, as I fondly called him, is our  eldest nephew, the eldest grand child of my parents. He is now in Grade IV- FL class. He is in resemblance of his father, really. He is a lot bigger now than this picture which was taken when he was still in second grade. What I admired most of my Kuya Reden is that he has the guts to perform on stage without forcing him... hmmm that's what I call determination. I thank God for keeping him safe always. I love my family so much. I may not be expressive about it but in my heart and in my mind, they are my treasures.


To arjay, joy2, joey, bishop bong, mama, tatay and kuya... MORE LIFE TO CHERISH, and more reasons to celebrate! God's overflowing blessings be upon you all. ♥♥♥


See, how August was gifted with such brilliant people? Not only that, Kagay-anons now are too busy as well with the upcoming fiesta celebration on the 28th.

MORE THAN WORDS!

Wow, I've been keeping this pic for long and have it pasted on my scrap book but unfortunately, when the flood came (earlier this year) this was among those things that were soak on the water, too bad. I left my scrapbook on top of my table but still the flood water was too high that it reached above it... Anyway at least the damage was not that much. I was still able to save this rare memorabilia. Why rare? These are my parents on their wedding day, the only pic that was left so far. Their marriage never lasted for long...:(  Or maybe, they're  just not really meant for each other.  The picture itself seems to  prove the reality that they are not happy?  I can see no hint from their faces. I chose to feature this for Friday Photo Flashback and to Seven Clown Circus so that I can preserve this almost torn, almost lost picture of the two people whom I owe my life with despite the fact that they do not have a successful marriage. They said, what the Lord has bind together, let no man separate- I wish it will always be the case. But this is beyond my control, it happened already. I'll just hope and pray to God earnestly that this will not happen to me nor to my other siblings. After all, God predestined us even before we are born and I do firmly believe that everything happens for a reason even if it is beyond our comprehension. As for me, God has a wonderful and perfect  plan a way too far different from my parents... Something that I will look forward to. Amen!